Since I saw 's new journal update, I am very intrigued that they actually got pissed at our Principal. Lol. Well, I didn't that much really. Although I do get it, and it actually makes sense why she wanted those things to be done, but the problem was she checked up on the performance too late. If we had a Dress Rehearsal last Monday it would've turn out to be great, at least we're not going to CRAM about it since the "BIG DAY - PERFORMANCE" is on Friday. We've got only a day to make those things that she wanted, and since we're all stressed out - slash - worn out, we're all getting cranky. And since I am not really stressed out that much, because I am the head of the "Beauty Department - aka. Makeup" and the "Music and Effects Department" it's not much of stress to me. But yes, I now realized that I am one, since all the people in our room kept bossing me around to turn the damn music off or the sound effects is late or something, it's pretty damn tiring.

I couldn't get anymore annoyed with what they're doing or whatever. It's like me everyday saying that I am sick and I want to get out of here. If you're going to ask me if am I actually helping out on things that make us all work out - yes. All my efforts are lost since they wouldn't care, since they're selfish enough that in their own sadistic minds they can only hear their own thoughts or whatever.

I know what you are seeing from those things that I said, I am acting like them now. But God, you should really experience the CHAOS that's happening in our classroom. I've learned a lot from what they tell me what my negatives are, and from that I have learned to be ignorant, to be somewhat careless from people. Although I do get it that I hurt people of what I say or I am a critique, I will change the hurt thing but the thing is that I am just saying the truth, I am being myself, at least I don't make good remarks and actually say something bad about it behind your back. Good thing I say it in front of your face.

People usually have issues on me, it is not vague from what I am saying - but, like I said, I know myself too very well. The years I have felt regretful, heartache, hurt, and unprepared, I've learn too much from the people that are like them. These people do not understand me, and since they don't really know how I look at things, how I actually observe you by just looking at you or how I think about things, they cannot judge me from the way how I do my actions, I am not saying that they're stupid, I am saying that people should think before they do something. Be careful of what you are doing. They don't know the real me, and it's not fair.

Oh well, life is unfair. Truthfully, I hate their world, I hate how they do things, and I don't want to say something that's very degrading here, I will just keep it to myself. And to those people who understand the real me - Thank you very much and congratulations.



xo, Ms. Dearlady
~ Deadly Irresistible ~